...my 1st tym getting pay dgn keje keras...nyahahah...hey its my 1st tym working keh...cant help it...im bored todae...bored till death...bedek sey...
woke up jek tkde org pat umah...mum left me home alone w/o saying anyting...i tried to tok to her yest but all she did was juz nod at my ques...okei2...fine lar..suke ati dia lar eh...
ive done ma resume...bt i duno whether i wana giv it to ma sis coz she's th 1 yg nk carik kan keje lar...so loser-ish sey...ishk!
my colleaguez askd me out todae...since all th bdk2 mly off nari...we wana go out n hang out...i tink im goin to join them...woohoo!!im totally hapi wen im wif them...bt sumtyms i feel so nt me sey...tk bley nk emo2...ngn drg mesti hapi2 jek...hahahah....
okei i started to tok crap...so suddenly i miz skol...i miz wearing skol uni...nyahahah...i miz ma frenz...i miz ma lessons...i miz sleep during lessons...i miz th gossip during lessons...i miz my crappy teachers...i miz ma drama-mama clazmatez...i miz evriting n evrybody...my graduation day is on 8th of jun...lagik lame sey....bt ingat kan graduation pat skol...skali pat ite tamp lar...suke lar tuh imah...nyahaah...!aku pon suke...eeee....mepek sey.....
k tkpe...check tis out...
IM A LONERjuz got back frm work...my legs reali hurts lar...yest work
full shift...todae work
morning...tmr work
full...die!even more stres lar sit at home...
mummy dun wana tok to me...
as evribody noes tat ive been
rejected to poly...
so no poly tis yr!!how hapi i am...bluek..!!its all full...
bloody FOOL..argh!!so wat im gona do for th whole yr waiting for poly nx yr?im stres up lar...mummy keep on nagging n ask me to work which can use ma cert...she kept on saying tat working at toysrus doesnt gain anyting..she said if she noe tat i wana work wif toysrus..she wldnt hv send me to ITE...yayayay...she expect me to work...a
REAL job...omg..im totally nt ready wif all tis...argh!!stez..!!psl ni smue my mum doesnt wan to tok to me nemore...argh!!
i duno y i feel
so crappy todae...i juz realize tat i lose my frenz...
frenz come n go...frenz change...n if they change...u cant do niting bt to accept them...bt wat if ur fren doesnt appreciate u?i mean wen they nid u,u
owayz ther bt wen
u nid them,they r
nt owayz ther..they said tat they hv
their own lyfs...tats true...if u wana b fair wif all ur frenz...den b fair lar...dun treat me lyk tis lar..wat did i do wrong sia u treat me lyk tis?im nt ungkit evryting its juz tat wen u nid sum1,i owayz ther...nobody ask me to bt i wan to b ther bcoz of u...bt y u treat me diff?i noe lar tat u r nt me n i am nt u...bt wen i nid sum1 most...u nt ther...i feel lyk i hv nobody sia...evribody bz...bz...bz...now uve gone...
hu's gona b ther for me wen i nid them most?hu's gona hear all th toking craps...sad toks...prob?hu's gona b ther for me thru happiness n sadness?NOBODY
u lead ur own lyf...evribody hv their own lyf...bt 1 ting im still nt sure abt it is
y u suddenly change?since sat i realize sumting goin on..u dun wana tell me...i noe tat u hv prob...cmon lar i noe u for
3yrs...n i tink bcoz of ur prob...u change
ALOT...even towards me...n even urself...i dun understand u..coz u neva tell...bt becoz of ur
'prob' uve change n it reali2 effect our frenship...
wher's all th hapi2 togeder?i noe it came for a moment onli...i noe tis day will come...now i feel sad wif ma probs n evriting...i feel so lonely sia...so so lonely...thers nobody to turn to...wif all th family memberz nt toking to me...i feel lyk im invisible at home sia...toking to tis blog oso duno y...lyk th blog can help me...sheet lar!y evriting happen now??feel so nt impo sia..
wat if 1 day im nt here?will anybody miz me?will anybody look for me?will anybody concern abt me?i duno...sumtyms i feel lyk i wana go away...far far away frm evribody...i feel so so sick...so sick of ma lyf...its nt gettin any beta...im afraid tat i will giv up 1 day...bt i hope im nt...
pix taken during work...

jerry n cherie...hahah...i tink tats their name uh...hahahah...okei u noe how i hate so much to tis mascots..i still running keh...bt i tink ive overcome it abit...by taking tis...

tadaa...haha...we're supposed to work...bt i ask tis kind geoffrey to take pix wit me...i lyk lar...tats ma colleague,dian...hahaha...
th expression is all an act...deeply inside im nt hapi wif ma lyf...i feel lonely...n im all sad...so sad tat i duno how to b hapi...all i nid now is to cry to sleep...tats beta...
10:39 PM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
UPSEThaiz...duno lar eh...i feel so so so upset lar...cant get to poly becoz its full...so nid to apply nx yr...for th tym being...i duno wat to do wif my lyf now...seriously duno...hv no planz...
hmmm...ppl change...evribody change...u cant expect a person to b th same...haiz...i miz sum1...so so so much...no mood...adios...
12:50 AM
Sunday, April 23, 2006
E.N.Dthers nobody to tok to....thers nobody to listen...all u nid to do is listen to urself...tok to urself...ppl hv their own lyf...their own prob...now i gues its tym to move on..
moooove....lyf has to move on rite?so wat ur application is
unsuccessful?tk kn nk dok diam2 jek kan..sedih camne pon bley uat pe?u hv ur higher nitec rite?thers owayz other path for u to choose...mayb evriting is for ma own good...
tankiu mum for keep on saying tkya skola...yippie...now ur daughter application to poly is unsuccessful...tis is all fate...wat for blaming others...blame urself for
nt getting a
GD RESULTS!!
regret2...tats how i feel now...im feeling so so so down...i hate being stupid..!y evriting happen to me sey...
1st i lost sum1 i luv most...n now i cant go poly...haha...wat a hapi lyf i hv...tankiu very much...i noe tis day will come...
tis yr full of down...down...down...down...i wana go out bt duno wher...duno wif hu...mayb go out alone...nobody's ther to turn to rite...
ok go!
12:56 PM